Monday, January 10, 2005

Just to keep in the swing....

Ok, I know that habits are both hard to break and hard to make, and in an effort to create the habit of blogging regularly, I'm writing this short note today.

The weather today SUCKS!!!!!!! Not because we're getting the snow-storms (not this week, anyway, though we did last week) that the lower 48 states are getting, but because it's almost -40 freaking degrees below 0. Yes, that's right folks, I said -40 deg. below 0 Fairenheit. Literally the point where the moisture in the air crystalizes and becomes ice fog. And I kid you not, this kind of weather is so cold that if you take a hot cup of coffee outside and throw the coffee up into the air (out of the mug itself), by the time it hits the ground, it will have frozen. *shaking head* I wanna visit my mommy in Hawaii!!!!!!! *whimper*

So, DH hasn't said anything to me today about our fight yesterday, and I highly doubt he will, either. He'll just pretend that it was never said, and that nothing is wrong, and then will wonder why I don't feel like talking to him, or being affectionate with him, etc. *shaking head* And 2 months down the road, when I try to say the same things as last night, he'll rage about how I'm making things up and getting my panties in a twist about nothing (his attitude, not my take on it), and act like it's the first he's ever heard of my feeling this way.

No, I'm not planning on divorcing him, or leaving him..... I don't want to disrupt Tay's life that way, and I honestly don't have the money to do something like that. I truly am unable to make such a drastic change at this point. And honestly, I still love the jerk..... think he's a jerk, and not all that attracted to him physically when he treats me so disrespectfully and ignores my feelings and thoughts, but for whatever reason, I still love him. *sigh*

Anyway..... that's my blog post for the day. It's actually pretty easy to come up with something to post lately. Actually easier than when I was a teen and tried to journal and found I didn't quite have enough teen angst to fill more than 2 lines of a diary page. *rolling eyes* Back to reading Witch Vox.

Blessings. --Kati

2 comments:

Naderbug said...

Hi Kati! Don't be surprised that you still love him, of course you do! You wouldn't have stayed with him this long if you didn't love him. And it is very commendable that you don't want to hurt Tay by leaving him. I know you just needed to vent. You're a strong woman. Just kick his ass and make him see the problem! lol Any time you need to vent, we are here for you sister.

Bright Blessings!
Rawiya

Michelle said...

Muahaha. I laugh at your cold weather. It's been in the 60's and 70's here. A threat of rain, but altogether beautiful. :o) (Again, muahahahaha!)

Good luck with keeping up with the blog. Boo to silly and altogether neanderthal husbands. Maybe I'll be happy being a cat lady all my life. *grin*

Love,
Your (much warmer) sis.