Thursday, July 19, 2007

Bummed, Pissed, Angry... Any other adjectives????

Just in case anybody here also reads my myspace blog, this IS a cross-post.

So, I knew I didn't get either of the two positions there at Noel Wein that I applied for. The Regional Position, and the Acquisitions position. Ok, fine. I know that it only means that something better is bound to open up for me soon. It always does.

Today, one of the Susan's (there are 3 Susan's that work at the library with me) tells me that the Regional position HAS been awarded to the library assistant out here at NPBranch, which means her position is now open for applications, and that applications are due by July 25. Next Wednesday. Ok, I figure. I'll get home, get the application printed out, scan the job descrip. to see if anything's changed, and get busting on that application and a cover letter, so I can get my coworker to proof-read it for me and I can get it turned in on time.

Wouldn't you f*cking know it..... They changed the description by half a sentence so I'm now ineligable for the freaking job.

The description previously read: Minimum Qualifications:
1) HS diploma or equivalent.
2) 2 years library experience (I have 5 now!) or Associate's Deg. in Lib. Science can substitute for experience
(And others that aren't relevent to my peeve.)
It NOW reads: 2 years Library experience one of which is beyond the page level. An Associate's Degree in Lib. Science can substitute.

WHY THE F***!?!?!?!?!?!?!? I had all the requirements, till they changed it. Now.... Now I don't meet the requirements because of that one stupid little change. And I'm guessing they changed it because out there at NP Branch one of my former-fellow pages (when I worked there) has been working part time as an casual assistant in addition to her page duties. An option I was never told about, much less given, though I expressed my interest frequently in somehow obtaining a position as a Lib. Assistant. But, evidently shortly after I left, PT expressed the same interest, and SHE was given the chance to obtain assistant experience, and now she meets the stringent requirements, but I don't. And the worst part is..... I don't have any way to GET that experience, WITHOUT this position!!! I mean, to get assistant experience, you've got to BE an assistant, and they're wanting the experience without being willing to give me a shot at the job.....

I'm so freaking bummed!!!!! I've put my heart into this job, I've talked to everybody about how I'll do whatever it takes to get experience to become a Lib. Assistant, and for pete's sake... I live 5 minutes from the freaking library, and I was so freaking reliable an employee..... What more do they want from me?!?!?!?!

I'm still going to fill out the damned application though. I'm not going to give up without a fight. With or without that freaking experience, I'm going to apply anyway. They have to do the work of reading my damned application & cover letter and call me & tell me I didn't make it. I won't just back down without a fight. I want that damned job, and I won't give up!


Princess Banter said...

Oh my -- that really does suck. But you know, you're right, don't let paperwork mumbo jumbo hinder you from reaching your target. You seem to have a lot of passion for it... and you definitely want it bad enough. I say go for it and beat it to the ground. Not to sound to cliche-y, but if it's for you, it's for you. People just have the misconception that if it's for you, it will get handed to you on a silver platter...

Kati said...

Thanks for the reinforcement Princess B!!! I've got all the info I need, and I'm going to scrounge up a little time this weekend (in between HS Reunion activities) to get the application filled out and a cover letter written. I may or may not have time to have a coworker proof-read the cover letter for me, as the App. is due on Thursday (not Wed. like I'd thought), and my coworker works different days than I do, at the beginning of the week. We'll see. Anyway, thanks again for the support & bolstering!


the walking man said...

Do you know what the Library Assistant does, could you step in and do the job right now? If so before you let them tell you no, you tell them you are already doing the job without the pay and now would prefer the pay for the work you already know how to do.

And if you don't bullshit them anyway by the time your probation period is up you'll have sank or swam.